February 22, 2017

2017 is becoming a year of growth, adventure and massive change for me. I am leaving behind a broken heart and 2 years of alcohol relapse after a 5-year sobriety period. If you read my posts and follow me on Instagram you know that I am grateful for all the brokenness and how it has transformed my life and launched me into a stronger recovery and sobriety. My hashtag is #leapingin2017. I am living that daily.

This new cycle of sobriety is empowering and full of possibility; and the way that this shows up in my daily life is by throwing adventures “for the taking”. Adventures that scare the shit out of me – but I am leaping nonetheless.

Last week I decided that this year I wanted to explore the “other side” of service in recovery…I will pursue get my student cap back on and pursue a dual certification as a...

February 17, 2017

I had a super interesting experience last night. As part of my recovery, I sometimes chair a local AA meeting.  It’s a great experience because I get to be help others like me; but it’s also a humbling ride, because I realize how immense and beautiful the process of recovery is. It shows me how much I have yet to learn, even 8 years into my journey. 

The meeting is an extremely small one, with only 10 people or so. My friend Jill and I are only women there – the others are young men from a sober house who arrive in a couple of cars and fill up the all the seats. Some of them painfully young, showing that this illness does not discriminate. Its hard for me, having a 16 year old son, to see an 18 year old in our AA rooms. And at the same time, I am grateful that they are there, addressing this deadly issue...

February 14, 2017

This year was supposed to be the third year of my marriage to the man who I considered to be my true love. He was my second husband – the “one I had been waiting for”.

Instead, this Valentine’s Day my parents are going to court to get divorced (yes, today of all days) and I am in the middle of my (second!) divorce myself. Yup, I am coming to terms that I MAY not be the relationship kind. And, surprisingly, I am perfectly fine with that.

That’s the beauty about sobriety in my life, it teaches me to be so incredibly grateful for every day, and teaches me to embrace what is – rather than what is not.Instead of mourning the loss of my marriage, I am grateful for the opportunity to become a better person now that I have time for me. I deeply believe that every intimate relationship we have is the biggest teacher, and a means...

February 1, 2017

BREAKING THE F**KING STIGMA OF ALCOHOLISM, ONCE AND FOR ALL.

For most people, there is something terrifying about the words "alcoholic", "alcoholism", or even "in recovery".  

Every time I say “I am sober”, or a “I am a recovered alcoholic”, or even “I am in recovery”, there is a beat of silence and a mild discomfort that crosses the other person’s face.

I have learned to say it naturally, a casual part of conversation, a result of many years of practice. And yes, it took a lot of time to extract the shame that I unintentionally added to the statement in early sobriety. I judged myself harshly, like others did. But I finally embraced it as part of who I am, and it now rolls off my tongue with ease and confidence. And yet, there is still always a beat of awkwardness (for others) when I share this part of who I a...

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And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. 

Anaïs Nin

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